The Cost of Filling Up the Tank

You don’t need a church newsletter (or a religious blog) to tell you that the price of gasoline has skyrocketed. We are all taking a second look at each and every trip that we make, from forays to the grocery store to more ambitious outings. More than that, we are driving differently: accelerations are made with care, pretending that proverbial egg is under the pedal. We shop around—without driving too much—for our car’s fuel. Gas has gone from a mundane, everyday necessity that we hardly consider to something that shapes our basic behaviors and lifestyle. It’s a basic need, and now it is costly.

At Pentecost, celebrated this upcoming Memorial Day weekend, we celebrate and embrace a Reality that, like gas in our cars, makes our spiritual lives “go:” the Holy Spirit. If cars need gas to help us fulfill our various callings and desires, Christians need this Holy Spirit, given at Pentecost, to fulfill their callings in Christ. Now the teachings of Jesus, as well as the saving realities of His passion, death, and resurrection, are established in His People. All the prophecies of the Torah and the Prophets pointed to this “Day of the Lord” when the Spirit of God would become the driving force of God’s covenant people. Without this gift of the Spirit, God’s People continue but are stuck—out of gas—unable to fulfill everything that God has revealed in Christ.

Despite appearances to the contrary, there’s no shortage of God in our world. The only fuel crisis for the Christian is refusing to fill up our lives with the Spirit of God. That is why St. Paul commanded Christians to “Be filled with the Spirit” (Ephesians 5:18). We have to keep our tanks full. The consequences of not doing so are similar to not keeping gas in our automobile’s tank: we will stall out, stranded on the roads of life, flashers embarrassingly shouting our vulnerability and lack of foresight. It’s bad enough to be physically out of gas, yet it’s even worse not to be filled with the Spirit. We are, after all, talking about eternal things, the essence of who we truly are.

So, how do we fill up our spiritual tanks with the Holy Spirit? This, according to St. Seraphim of Sarov, the great 19th century Russian wonderworker, is the ultimate question of the Christian’s life:

…the true aim of our Christian life consists of the acquisition of the Holy Spirit of God. As for fasts, and vigils, and prayer, and almsgiving, and every good deed done for Christ's sake, they are the only means of acquiring the Holy Spirit of God. … [O]nly good deeds done for Christ's sake bring us the fruits of the Holy Spirit. …That is why our Lord Jesus Christ said: "He who does not gather with Me scatters."

St. Seraphim merely echoes what St. Paul was saying in Ephesians:

Do not get drunk with wine…but be filled with the Spirit, addressing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody to the Lord with all your hearts, always and for everything giving thanks in the Name of our Lord Jesus Christ to God the Father.

All this involves a twofold movement: emptying, and filling. You cannot pour anything into a full container; first, you have to empty it out. That’s why we can’t be “drunk with wine” or anything else, for that matter. We’ve got to make room for God in our lives; this involves concrete actions and effort, and must be done first. We’ve got to turn away from our passions, and engage in the spiritual disciplines of prayer, fasting, and works of mercy. That’s self-emptying, in order to be filled.

Second, we’ve got to glorify Christ in His Body, the Church, and in our lives. St. Paul stuns us with the imperative of worship in order to have a life brimming with the Spirit. In this brief passage,he mentions three forms of hymnody (“psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs”), two types of worship expression (“singing and making melody”), one way to fulfill all this properly (“all your hearts”), and the content of it all (“giving thanks”). To that, St. Seraphim adds concrete “good deeds” done in the Name of Christ. It’s no accident that this movement is imprinted on every cycle of Orthodox Christian worship, as we continually prepare for—emptying!—and then celebrate—filling!—the feasts throughout the church year.

It’s all very simple, really, but it is costly, to be sure. “Emptying” and “filling” is the basic rhythm of our life in Christ, in the Spirit of God. The Feast of Pentecost recalls us to this dynamic, powerful life. We say in the Dismissal Hymn for Pentecost that by the Spirit of God “the fishermen were made most wise.” The implication for you and me is that Spirit of God can change anyone, no matter what. Have you checked your gauge lately? Are you willing to pay the price to truly fill up?